long time nv update le

yes long time nv update you le.

been lazy. wld rather think in my mind then to type it out. every time i want to write my thinking. when i put the pen to paper, the tots juz stop flowing. cant trace where it began and where it ended.

been busy with projects.

my last sem. i will miss sch. not the studyin though. thinking of askin father to let me take double major. dunno why. it's like now or never. yet i dun really see the need. it's juz a temp getaway for me.

mei is comin back. so is bao. happy! can see them finally after a few months.

do you ever really feel happy? as in really really happy? or do you think you are happy? or do you behave in such a way coz it's supposed to be this way. most of the time it's juz neutral.

heard a story from father: question in mind. who shld you trust? your long time best fren or your spouse?

thinkin of droppin the mechanical engineering mod i took out of curiosity. being to regret it, esp. when i cldn't do the second tutorial. really felt like droppin the mod (coz i dun need it actually) shld i? shld i not? decisions*3 --> ath phrase came to me mind: you can be scared of it, but dun give up. tt's the thing tt is holdin me back. weird.