okie exams over le. results out 27th may 5pm. bleah. got love hate r/s with results.
got 3 mth hols. kinda lookin forward yet again no. now mother hooked on da chang jin. me also catchin up on my animes. but a few days can complete le. lalala~neutral~
Friday, May 05, 2006
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
unhappy. again dun read if you are in good/bad mood. read when neutral mood
dear blog, not feelin happy these few days coz something happened and i did not like how the matter was being handled by both myself and my fren(s) who promised to help me.
yes i know he (let me call him Z) is busy, but if you are, you can at least reply my sms/msn to let me know tt you are busy so tt i can find other ppl to help me with the project rather den leave my grp members and i hanging, not knowlin if you will really do it for me.
yes, although tdy (5th april wed) you alr draft out say what you want to do for us. but too bad, i alr ask ath person (let me call tt person A) to help me with it alr. even for tt person A, i did not like askin him, coz although he was also one of the 2 ppl who promised to help me, the past few days he put "Busy" mode on his msn.
On Monday (3rd april) morning when Z came online first so i asked Z to help me coz i had a feelin tt A had forgot abt helpin me. so when Z came online b4 A did, i asked Z to help coz i dunno when A will come online. but when A came online, apparantly he also forgot tt he promised to help me last sun (2 april) coz tt time he promise tt he will help me with the codin on MON mornin coz he was busy helpin ath grp. which was fine with me. but on Mon Morning when i see him online, he made no mention and juz sed, "oh, you doin IT izzit? dun bother you liaoz." i was thinkin to myself, did you not promised to help me with the codin part? at least tell me say you cannot do it tdy and tell me when can you do it for me. and not dun mention anything.
i think i dislike most is tt tdy when A came down to explain to my grpmembers the coding he did for us, coz only myself and ath grp member was there, i think i heard A mumbled tt i am the one who did not understand the situation tt Z was in and also sed tt i was being bad for the way i treated Z. i forgot to ask A, "so you think tt not replyin ppl's sms and msn msg is an ok thing to do izzit?" i want to tell A tt if Z had at least juz tell me tt he was busy and tt he was unable to help us, i can move on and ask others to help me. i dun have to ask A or Z to help. but the fact why A finally helped me is also coz i was tellin my grp of frens how they handled things and wat happened and my fren daff helped me to scold (or spoke) to A. they were tellin me tt i was too NICE to them le when i did not pester them to help me. but i mean to me, i was askin more of like beggin ppl to help me, wat gives me the privilage to pester ppl to help me? S***
Actually i alr asked my sch of computing fren to help me and he agreed, but he was busy with his stuff too and the earliest he can meet my grp was only this fri. which by then i'll be too stressed to eat/study/slp. my grp member also stressed me up coz he really behave like he cannot take it anymore of the coding part.
throughout this whole episode, i did not like tt way i handled things. i admit tt by nature i am a panicky person. tt's why i wanted to project to be completed soon coz exams are coming up. and knowing my study style, i cannot settle down and properly study when i still have projects on hand uncompleted. i am not as "Zai" as other ppl who can do minimal studyin and still score good grades. and YES, the project is my grpmats and mine i shld not ask ppl to help. throughout this whole episode i've learnt tt when you ask ppl for help, it's such a dreadful issue. best is to depend on yourself. therefore i've decided to not ask the both of them to help le.
what abt you? do you think tt i could have handled the matter in a better manner? to me i seriously think tt i have did the best tt i can to handle this. but deep down, i dunno how to face both of them coz every time when i see them, i'll think of the way they handled things and i will juz give them a expressionless face.
bottomline: at least tell me a "yes" or "no" so i can plan alternatives and i DO NOT like it when ppl DON"T reply my sms-es with regards to stuff tt requires planning e.g. project work stuff.
and although such a thing happened, i believe they will still behave as they did coz they do not see tt not replyin sms-es is a problem.
FYI: to A when he dunr eply sms-es, it's to show tt he agrees to what tt is being sed in the sms. but how am i to know if he got receive my sms right?
to Z when he is in doubt, he does not reply to sms-es (tt was wat he told me previously b4 this thing happened). which precisely made me panic coz he nv reply my sms tt implies tt he dunno whether or not he can do the job for us! and the reason why i only sms him once is coz i was thinkin if he was busy, i dun want to bother him with my sms-es knowin tt he wun reply.
I HATE HATE HATE!!!!! i am ANGRY! and yet UNHAPPY coz they are fine as frens but not ppl i will ask for help unless totally necessary. and the stupid thing is tt i still have to organize a KTV session with A coz he alr complete the main part of the project for us le.and the KTV session is to repay him. I really want to trash things out with him but i believe from his point of view, he thinks tt he did nothing wrong. so i shall save my mouth water.
when will this feelin subside? really lookin forward to the day i graduate next year so i wun have to face any of them. I WANT TO and WILL GRADUATE!!!!
ath contributing factor why i am super stressed now is also becoz exams are comin up. and although exams are coming up, i have yet to sit down and really do my revision.last year i really PANIC until like siao coz i dunno wat the hell was goin on. but this year although i STILL dunno wat is goin on, i still have not attempted to really sit down and revise. sobz... i'm worried abt my cap...
yes i know he (let me call him Z) is busy, but if you are, you can at least reply my sms/msn to let me know tt you are busy so tt i can find other ppl to help me with the project rather den leave my grp members and i hanging, not knowlin if you will really do it for me.
yes, although tdy (5th april wed) you alr draft out say what you want to do for us. but too bad, i alr ask ath person (let me call tt person A) to help me with it alr. even for tt person A, i did not like askin him, coz although he was also one of the 2 ppl who promised to help me, the past few days he put "Busy" mode on his msn.
On Monday (3rd april) morning when Z came online first so i asked Z to help me coz i had a feelin tt A had forgot abt helpin me. so when Z came online b4 A did, i asked Z to help coz i dunno when A will come online. but when A came online, apparantly he also forgot tt he promised to help me last sun (2 april) coz tt time he promise tt he will help me with the codin on MON mornin coz he was busy helpin ath grp. which was fine with me. but on Mon Morning when i see him online, he made no mention and juz sed, "oh, you doin IT izzit? dun bother you liaoz." i was thinkin to myself, did you not promised to help me with the codin part? at least tell me say you cannot do it tdy and tell me when can you do it for me. and not dun mention anything.
i think i dislike most is tt tdy when A came down to explain to my grpmembers the coding he did for us, coz only myself and ath grp member was there, i think i heard A mumbled tt i am the one who did not understand the situation tt Z was in and also sed tt i was being bad for the way i treated Z. i forgot to ask A, "so you think tt not replyin ppl's sms and msn msg is an ok thing to do izzit?" i want to tell A tt if Z had at least juz tell me tt he was busy and tt he was unable to help us, i can move on and ask others to help me. i dun have to ask A or Z to help. but the fact why A finally helped me is also coz i was tellin my grp of frens how they handled things and wat happened and my fren daff helped me to scold (or spoke) to A. they were tellin me tt i was too NICE to them le when i did not pester them to help me. but i mean to me, i was askin more of like beggin ppl to help me, wat gives me the privilage to pester ppl to help me? S***
Actually i alr asked my sch of computing fren to help me and he agreed, but he was busy with his stuff too and the earliest he can meet my grp was only this fri. which by then i'll be too stressed to eat/study/slp. my grp member also stressed me up coz he really behave like he cannot take it anymore of the coding part.
throughout this whole episode, i did not like tt way i handled things. i admit tt by nature i am a panicky person. tt's why i wanted to project to be completed soon coz exams are coming up. and knowing my study style, i cannot settle down and properly study when i still have projects on hand uncompleted. i am not as "Zai" as other ppl who can do minimal studyin and still score good grades. and YES, the project is my grpmats and mine i shld not ask ppl to help. throughout this whole episode i've learnt tt when you ask ppl for help, it's such a dreadful issue. best is to depend on yourself. therefore i've decided to not ask the both of them to help le.
what abt you? do you think tt i could have handled the matter in a better manner? to me i seriously think tt i have did the best tt i can to handle this. but deep down, i dunno how to face both of them coz every time when i see them, i'll think of the way they handled things and i will juz give them a expressionless face.
bottomline: at least tell me a "yes" or "no" so i can plan alternatives and i DO NOT like it when ppl DON"T reply my sms-es with regards to stuff tt requires planning e.g. project work stuff.
and although such a thing happened, i believe they will still behave as they did coz they do not see tt not replyin sms-es is a problem.
FYI: to A when he dunr eply sms-es, it's to show tt he agrees to what tt is being sed in the sms. but how am i to know if he got receive my sms right?
to Z when he is in doubt, he does not reply to sms-es (tt was wat he told me previously b4 this thing happened). which precisely made me panic coz he nv reply my sms tt implies tt he dunno whether or not he can do the job for us! and the reason why i only sms him once is coz i was thinkin if he was busy, i dun want to bother him with my sms-es knowin tt he wun reply.
I HATE HATE HATE!!!!! i am ANGRY! and yet UNHAPPY coz they are fine as frens but not ppl i will ask for help unless totally necessary. and the stupid thing is tt i still have to organize a KTV session with A coz he alr complete the main part of the project for us le.and the KTV session is to repay him. I really want to trash things out with him but i believe from his point of view, he thinks tt he did nothing wrong. so i shall save my mouth water.
when will this feelin subside? really lookin forward to the day i graduate next year so i wun have to face any of them. I WANT TO and WILL GRADUATE!!!!
ath contributing factor why i am super stressed now is also becoz exams are comin up. and although exams are coming up, i have yet to sit down and really do my revision.last year i really PANIC until like siao coz i dunno wat the hell was goin on. but this year although i STILL dunno wat is goin on, i still have not attempted to really sit down and revise. sobz... i'm worried abt my cap...
Saturday, April 01, 2006
webcast
was watchin anand's webcast. FYI, he is the lecturer for I.T. it's a programmin mod. anyway, was thinking tt he is a nice lecturer. hmm~~ my second general bio lecturer is also good too. all interesting ppl. makes the entire lecture more "alive". but i seriously hope tt the quality of the webcast can be better. coz when i put it to full screen, the image gets all fuzzy wozzy. cannot see the codin clearly.bleah
was on the bus ytd with shu zhen, den i saw this ACS boy doin programmin stuff (almost similiar to wat we are learning in Uni. juz tt his is in something like a DOS mod)on his fujitsu laptop. omg. according to SZ, his lappy is worth her lappy and celeste's lappy tgt. rich kids.
tdy watched 1.5 of anand's webcast and still have one more IT webcast to go. i still have 2 more mktg webcast to go. bleah.
anyway, zy when you are free, go see the nikegolf.com webby. the michelle wie pic they use very nice. they got 3 pics 2 is tiger woods and one is michelle wie. so you keep tryin to go in until you see her lah.
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do i really come across to you all as being a chatter-box all the time? i have my quiet moments too. haha. known as "comfortable silence" to me depending on the situation.sometimes i'm tired also lah. so i keep quiet too. haha. zy and jy shld know tt. both ling jiao guo. lalala~~~oh yeah was readin some of my frens' blogs. seems like they dun update as often as i like them too. bleah. wah. tdy i update until 3 times. more then makes for the "disappearance" righty? oh yeah, anyway juz a lil good news to share is tt although i complain so much abt my mktg grp right? but at least my whole grp(for those tt turned up lah), we all scored full marks in the presentation part. YAY~~ now hope tt we can scored well in the report part too. *crosses fingers*
was on the bus ytd with shu zhen, den i saw this ACS boy doin programmin stuff (almost similiar to wat we are learning in Uni. juz tt his is in something like a DOS mod)on his fujitsu laptop. omg. according to SZ, his lappy is worth her lappy and celeste's lappy tgt. rich kids.
tdy watched 1.5 of anand's webcast and still have one more IT webcast to go. i still have 2 more mktg webcast to go. bleah.
anyway, zy when you are free, go see the nikegolf.com webby. the michelle wie pic they use very nice. they got 3 pics 2 is tiger woods and one is michelle wie. so you keep tryin to go in until you see her lah.
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do i really come across to you all as being a chatter-box all the time? i have my quiet moments too. haha. known as "comfortable silence" to me depending on the situation.sometimes i'm tired also lah. so i keep quiet too. haha. zy and jy shld know tt. both ling jiao guo. lalala~~~oh yeah was readin some of my frens' blogs. seems like they dun update as often as i like them too. bleah. wah. tdy i update until 3 times. more then makes for the "disappearance" righty? oh yeah, anyway juz a lil good news to share is tt although i complain so much abt my mktg grp right? but at least my whole grp(for those tt turned up lah), we all scored full marks in the presentation part. YAY~~ now hope tt we can scored well in the report part too. *crosses fingers*
my pri 4 girl
erm... my pri 4 girl failed her english paper scoring a grand total of 30/100.according to her, her teacher told her "you are counted as lucky to have this score coz everyone in the class also failed" den i was like "ERM!!!"
anway every time during tuition she wun do her HW, always like to lie on the bed, always like to set up her harry potter game and insists tt i promised to play with her the other time. yup, i did promised to play with her and bring her stickers but tt's if she did her homework. but obviously she did not do it. so why shld i keep my promise to her righty? well i kinda got angry when she still refused to sit properly and insists on settin up her harry potter board game so i kinda raised my voice and sed "(her name), why shld i keep my promise to you if you did not keep yours in the first place? if you keep yours, i will keep mine too"
FYI, this lil girl eat soft dun eat hard (pardon the lousy english, it's my blog right?)then i told her, "if you do blah blah blah, i will play games with you in the last 15 mins." den after dragging and dilly dallying she finally did her HW although i dunno if she copied the ans coz she was lyin on the bed and i dun think tt it's very nice if i sit on her bed to teach her too (but in the end i still did). and you know wat was the thing tt caught her attention so tt she in the end do her HW? coz she was playin with her hello kitty dolls from mac's den she named 2 of the male dolls jonathan and yi hao. den i was like, "wah... you like these 2 guys in your class izzit? or else how come you name them this?" den she screwed up her nose and sed, "nope~, i came up with the name 'yi hao' by myself" (but i have a feelin tt she like someone lah) den she ask me nice or not. den after i sed tt it was a nice name she happily settled down to do her close passage. *phew
anyway since she has done her part, i played with her also loh... as i was seein her preparing to play i suddenly think tt hai... actually very poor thing also coz she is only pri4 den her elder sis and bro all dun play with her games... haha. some thing like me. haha. i like used to like to play monopoly but no one like to play with me coz it's a long game. haha. in the end played UNO with her. interesting. it's those tt can shoot out the cards one... okie okie tt's all tt i promised ppl to blog abt.
anway every time during tuition she wun do her HW, always like to lie on the bed, always like to set up her harry potter game and insists tt i promised to play with her the other time. yup, i did promised to play with her and bring her stickers but tt's if she did her homework. but obviously she did not do it. so why shld i keep my promise to her righty? well i kinda got angry when she still refused to sit properly and insists on settin up her harry potter board game so i kinda raised my voice and sed "(her name), why shld i keep my promise to you if you did not keep yours in the first place? if you keep yours, i will keep mine too"
FYI, this lil girl eat soft dun eat hard (pardon the lousy english, it's my blog right?)then i told her, "if you do blah blah blah, i will play games with you in the last 15 mins." den after dragging and dilly dallying she finally did her HW although i dunno if she copied the ans coz she was lyin on the bed and i dun think tt it's very nice if i sit on her bed to teach her too (but in the end i still did). and you know wat was the thing tt caught her attention so tt she in the end do her HW? coz she was playin with her hello kitty dolls from mac's den she named 2 of the male dolls jonathan and yi hao. den i was like, "wah... you like these 2 guys in your class izzit? or else how come you name them this?" den she screwed up her nose and sed, "nope~, i came up with the name 'yi hao' by myself" (but i have a feelin tt she like someone lah) den she ask me nice or not. den after i sed tt it was a nice name she happily settled down to do her close passage. *phew
anyway since she has done her part, i played with her also loh... as i was seein her preparing to play i suddenly think tt hai... actually very poor thing also coz she is only pri4 den her elder sis and bro all dun play with her games... haha. some thing like me. haha. i like used to like to play monopoly but no one like to play with me coz it's a long game. haha. in the end played UNO with her. interesting. it's those tt can shoot out the cards one... okie okie tt's all tt i promised ppl to blog abt.
Long entry. dun read if you are in good/bad mood. read if you are in neutral mood.
Apparantly ying ying also kinda faced the same situation tt i face for my mktg project. juz tt hers was 2 grpmates who MIA and made her wait for 1.5hours. total of 5 grp mates, one turned up ath at least called to say not coming.
My case was each time i called her, her reasons were:
1) huh... it's my free day...
2) i have to work...
3) i have project meeting b4 tt, but i will try to make it if i can
4) erm... i'm not feelin well
at first she sed, "nvm, juz tell me wat to do, i will do it and send it to you all."
well, let's juz say i gave her the benefit of the doubt and told her wat to do for her part (but by then my grpmates and i alr had a STRONG sneakin feelin tt she wun do anything so we alr did EVERYTHING).
FYI, i informed her the week before tt we were meeting. and she told me tt she will come down even tho it's her free day. in fact each time i all got inform her via sms/msn of our meetings.
den during second last meetin (wed) before our actual presentation on fri, she called to say she cannot meet us coz she will very ill. so i told via sms her, "nvm, since you are so ill, juz upload wat you have done for your part into our ivle community since i still got time to add her part into the report.as for your part in the presentation, juz do the introduction" she then replied "huh?! but i tot i was supposed to do the research for question 2 and 5? i dunno anything abt the introduction leh izzit found on page 284 and 285?"
den i replied, "yeah" and continued to ask her about uploading her research for question 2 and 5 juz in case she really did her part and in order not to waste her effort, i can still add in...although it was alr wed. however... she did not reply my sms and did not upload also and did not send to my email also.
she then proceed to propose meeting us all on thurs 2-4pm to run thru our presentation. but we either have lessons or plans alr. so too bad. we can't meet her.
anyway, she really did her slides and send them to me on thur around 1 plus pm (when i was having lessons), SURPRISE SURPRISE!! so i was hopeful tt she will turn up for the presentation itself. but i when i was complaining to my frens online about havin to change the layout and formatting of all the slides and the fact tt i have to do not 1 but TWO version of our presentation (in case she turns up and in case she nv turn up) she called me at... 11plus pm to tell me, "eh... hi... this is (her name)... erm... is there anyway to push the whole grp's presentation to next week? (an impossible thing to do coz our tutorial lessons is only held on even weeks) i dunno if i can make it for tml's presentation coz i'm ill and i have MC..."
so i told her, "erm... it alright, if you are ill, juz pass us/the tutor the MC, we will still go ahead with the presentation and yeah ,we are using your slides (2 only out of her 9 slides, which i have no idea why i still bother to use/add it in although i suspect she will not turn up)."
her reply, "huh?... den... wat about... ... me?" wah... then i really pengz lor... y shld we bother abt you when you nv bother abt the report and nv do ANYTHING and never up for ANY meetings?
anyway, she asked for the tutor's email and i gave her (but i dunno if she got the correct email address given tt it was sed over the phone) den she told her tt she will inform me tml if she can make it. (note: tt still means tt i have to do 2 versions of the presentation slides)she still had the cheek to write in her msn msg, "MARKETING SUCKS"
my frens have concluded tt it's perhaps due tot he different culture of tt particular fac coz it's not required of them to attend tutorials which leads them to dun attend other fac's tutorials too bah.
okie. these are the main highlights of my exciting "grp member" although there are still other incidents...
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lesson 1: i'm gullible
lesson 2: i give ppl too much benefit of the doubt
lesson 3: (from my other mktg grp mates) wah, you so free to sms her ah? (... ...)
lesson 4: avoid being the co-ordinator of events
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anyway, despite my rantings, i see some her in me. although i hate to admit it. but yeah. i'm a bit like her. last sem's micro econs and legal, i did not know what is goin on so everything all my grpmates do. even the bulk of the presentation. i only did the minor minor parts.
but at least i turn up for meetings and dun leavin my grpmates hanging. (erm... tt's a redeemin pt right?)
this sem's MA i also nv do anything much. everything all throw to lao pa or old man to do. hai...*ashamed* my stats grp too~~~ SOBZ...
muz reflect on myself... :(
My case was each time i called her, her reasons were:
1) huh... it's my free day...
2) i have to work...
3) i have project meeting b4 tt, but i will try to make it if i can
4) erm... i'm not feelin well
at first she sed, "nvm, juz tell me wat to do, i will do it and send it to you all."
well, let's juz say i gave her the benefit of the doubt and told her wat to do for her part (but by then my grpmates and i alr had a STRONG sneakin feelin tt she wun do anything so we alr did EVERYTHING).
FYI, i informed her the week before tt we were meeting. and she told me tt she will come down even tho it's her free day. in fact each time i all got inform her via sms/msn of our meetings.
den during second last meetin (wed) before our actual presentation on fri, she called to say she cannot meet us coz she will very ill. so i told via sms her, "nvm, since you are so ill, juz upload wat you have done for your part into our ivle community since i still got time to add her part into the report.as for your part in the presentation, juz do the introduction" she then replied "huh?! but i tot i was supposed to do the research for question 2 and 5? i dunno anything abt the introduction leh izzit found on page 284 and 285?"
den i replied, "yeah" and continued to ask her about uploading her research for question 2 and 5 juz in case she really did her part and in order not to waste her effort, i can still add in...although it was alr wed. however... she did not reply my sms and did not upload also and did not send to my email also.
she then proceed to propose meeting us all on thurs 2-4pm to run thru our presentation. but we either have lessons or plans alr. so too bad. we can't meet her.
anyway, she really did her slides and send them to me on thur around 1 plus pm (when i was having lessons), SURPRISE SURPRISE!! so i was hopeful tt she will turn up for the presentation itself. but i when i was complaining to my frens online about havin to change the layout and formatting of all the slides and the fact tt i have to do not 1 but TWO version of our presentation (in case she turns up and in case she nv turn up) she called me at... 11plus pm to tell me, "eh... hi... this is (her name)... erm... is there anyway to push the whole grp's presentation to next week? (an impossible thing to do coz our tutorial lessons is only held on even weeks) i dunno if i can make it for tml's presentation coz i'm ill and i have MC..."
so i told her, "erm... it alright, if you are ill, juz pass us/the tutor the MC, we will still go ahead with the presentation and yeah ,we are using your slides (2 only out of her 9 slides, which i have no idea why i still bother to use/add it in although i suspect she will not turn up)."
her reply, "huh?... den... wat about... ... me?" wah... then i really pengz lor... y shld we bother abt you when you nv bother abt the report and nv do ANYTHING and never up for ANY meetings?
anyway, she asked for the tutor's email and i gave her (but i dunno if she got the correct email address given tt it was sed over the phone) den she told her tt she will inform me tml if she can make it. (note: tt still means tt i have to do 2 versions of the presentation slides)she still had the cheek to write in her msn msg, "MARKETING SUCKS"
my frens have concluded tt it's perhaps due tot he different culture of tt particular fac coz it's not required of them to attend tutorials which leads them to dun attend other fac's tutorials too bah.
okie. these are the main highlights of my exciting "grp member" although there are still other incidents...
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lesson 1: i'm gullible
lesson 2: i give ppl too much benefit of the doubt
lesson 3: (from my other mktg grp mates) wah, you so free to sms her ah? (... ...)
lesson 4: avoid being the co-ordinator of events
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anyway, despite my rantings, i see some her in me. although i hate to admit it. but yeah. i'm a bit like her. last sem's micro econs and legal, i did not know what is goin on so everything all my grpmates do. even the bulk of the presentation. i only did the minor minor parts.
but at least i turn up for meetings and dun leavin my grpmates hanging. (erm... tt's a redeemin pt right?)
this sem's MA i also nv do anything much. everything all throw to lao pa or old man to do. hai...*ashamed* my stats grp too~~~ SOBZ...
muz reflect on myself... :(
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