Nice Song abt Friendship

一个像夏天一个像秋天
第一次见面看你不太顺眼 谁知道後来关系那麽密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天 却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人後生命全改变 原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信 朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰 你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定 朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音 我的有口无心 我离不开Darling更离不开你
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人後生命全改变 原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信 朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰 你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定 朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音 我的有口无心 我离不开Darling更离不开你

你了解我所有对的东西 才常泼我冷水怕我忘记
你知道我所有丢脸的事情 却为我的美好形象冒雨

如果不是你我不会相信 朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰 你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定 朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音 我的有口无心 我离不开Darling更离不开你

Blood+

Eeee... catching up on blood+ and any other animes tt i've stopped watchin for some time. watched blood+ until epi 37 le.

Solomon so cute~~ i like. so sad and lonely but he cant do anything abt it. yet he still cares for Saya. awww~~

hols goin to be over so soon! hate sch! argh. 2 more sems to go! and it will be over! YES!
Argh... time really flies. old le old le. bleah.

wah~

lalla am watchin entertainment news now. tdy they got 4 ladies to sing Sandy Lam's songs. nice nice. *hint hint go dl and send me her songs okie? muahahaha!!!! her old songs and new ones all very nice leh. but surprisingly i nv got round to buyin her compliation album b4. sister and her bf goin to watch her performance at the end of this year. if he has to do national service den i get to be the back up. hahahaa~~~~ go listen her "yi ge ren". the tune is from some english song but i dunno the english song name.


hmmm~~ other then dat y i am bloggin now is tt i refuse to read my readings and am tryin to waste time over here. lalala. kk. need to get back to studies. next week got quiz. EEKS!

from email

*Please Read..... Very meaningful..... *>> >>>>>> >>>>*A student asks a teacher, "What is love?" The teacher said, >>"in>> >>>>order to>> >>>>answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the >>biggest>> >>>>padi and>> >>>>come back.**>> >>>>>> >>>>But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot>> >>>>turn back to>> >>>>pick.">> >>>>>> >>>>The student went to the field, go thru first>>row, he saw one big>> >>>>padi, but>> >>>>he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw>> >>>>another bigger>> >>>>one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him.>> >>>>>> >>>>Later, when he finished more than half of the padi f ield, he>> >>>>start to>> >>>>realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he >>saw,>> >>>>he know he>> >>>>has missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!! So, he ended >>up>> >>>>went back>> >>>>to the teacher with empty hand.>> >>>>>> >>>>The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for >>a>> >>>>better one,>> >>>>but when later you realize, you have already miss the>>person....">> >>>>>> >>>>"What is marriage then?" the student asked.>> >>>>>> >>>>The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the>> >>>>corn field>> >>>>and choose the biggest corn and come back.>> >>>>>> >>>>But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot>> >>>>turn back to>> >>>>pick.>> >>>>>> >>>>"The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful >>not>> >>>>to repeat**>> >>>>**the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, >>he>> >>>>has picked>> >>>>one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the>> >>>>teacher.**>> >>>>>> >>>>The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a>>corn.... you>> >>>>look for one>> >>>>that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the>> >>>>best one you>> >>>>get.... this is marriage."** *>> >>>>>> >>>> *Believe...>> >>>>And as you believe,>> >>>>You will find>> >>>>Reaching gets easier,>> >>>>Setbacks get>> >>>>More manageable,>> >>>>Life becomes>> >>>>More meaningful.*

busy busy busy

everyone's busy
busy with work
busy with sch life
busy with family
busy with tryin to strike a balance between everything

so busy to the extend tt when we meet it's becomes juz a ritual. meet for the sake of meetin and not truly the want to meet.

some ppl keep being busy to keep some stuff from their minds
some are truly busy
some times it's juz nice to be busy. but at the end of it all, what comes out it? wat will you get from it? when it's not busy time will you feel empty?

pensive mode.

think of me

currently rather hooked on this song from phantom of the opera. and some others songd by chen qi zhen (cheer chen)

recently busy with orientation 0 week. met this year's newbies. this year intake increased by around 50%. guys and girls ratio 1:5 so tt is 5 girls for every 1 guy. one of my guys frens is very happy abt this news. good for him hope he can find a gf soon.

be 0 week councilor muz pretend to be enthu when i am not very enthu. but muz show juniors say we very sociable so they will be willing to ask us stuff and tt they will be willing to engage in the games with us.

i imagine myself in their shoes. this time round many poly ppl got in. all with good cap scores. here i am thinkin how come they so easy come in den i have to apply TWICE to get in. but then again maybe workin outside for almost a year wasnt such a bad thing. at least i got my testimonials

and i was thinkin if only my own councilors durin my year got more poly ppl. this time round besides me there are 3 other ppl from poly. so tt is good news? haha

想念你的歌

am listening now to 想念你的歌. a very nice song. theresa (from campus superstar) sang it. original singer is Saya (ah mei's younger sister). ah~~ so sweet... so sad... so powerful the song. she sounds a but like ah mei. but saya's voice like more gentle.

anyway now want to hear her music and do stuff so tt's y i'm typin this entry. until now i still haben figure out how to use the blogspot's pictures function. so i nv upload any pictures. sorry zy. i also lazy to upload onto friendster.

weird tt b4 exams everything excites me. now seems like got too much time on hand and every thing dun seem as exciting. been goin out for the past 1.5 weeks. go out until broke le. coz this month also got many bday and bday celebrations.

exams over le

okie exams over le. results out 27th may 5pm. bleah. got love hate r/s with results.
got 3 mth hols. kinda lookin forward yet again no. now mother hooked on da chang jin. me also catchin up on my animes. but a few days can complete le. lalala~neutral~

unhappy. again dun read if you are in good/bad mood. read when neutral mood

dear blog, not feelin happy these few days coz something happened and i did not like how the matter was being handled by both myself and my fren(s) who promised to help me.


yes i know he (let me call him Z) is busy, but if you are, you can at least reply my sms/msn to let me know tt you are busy so tt i can find other ppl to help me with the project rather den leave my grp members and i hanging, not knowlin if you will really do it for me.

yes, although tdy (5th april wed) you alr draft out say what you want to do for us. but too bad, i alr ask ath person (let me call tt person A) to help me with it alr. even for tt person A, i did not like askin him, coz although he was also one of the 2 ppl who promised to help me, the past few days he put "Busy" mode on his msn.

On Monday (3rd april) morning when Z came online first so i asked Z to help me coz i had a feelin tt A had forgot abt helpin me. so when Z came online b4 A did, i asked Z to help coz i dunno when A will come online. but when A came online, apparantly he also forgot tt he promised to help me last sun (2 april) coz tt time he promise tt he will help me with the codin on MON mornin coz he was busy helpin ath grp. which was fine with me. but on Mon Morning when i see him online, he made no mention and juz sed, "oh, you doin IT izzit? dun bother you liaoz." i was thinkin to myself, did you not promised to help me with the codin part? at least tell me say you cannot do it tdy and tell me when can you do it for me. and not dun mention anything.

i think i dislike most is tt tdy when A came down to explain to my grpmembers the coding he did for us, coz only myself and ath grp member was there, i think i heard A mumbled tt i am the one who did not understand the situation tt Z was in and also sed tt i was being bad for the way i treated Z. i forgot to ask A, "so you think tt not replyin ppl's sms and msn msg is an ok thing to do izzit?" i want to tell A tt if Z had at least juz tell me tt he was busy and tt he was unable to help us, i can move on and ask others to help me. i dun have to ask A or Z to help. but the fact why A finally helped me is also coz i was tellin my grp of frens how they handled things and wat happened and my fren daff helped me to scold (or spoke) to A. they were tellin me tt i was too NICE to them le when i did not pester them to help me. but i mean to me, i was askin more of like beggin ppl to help me, wat gives me the privilage to pester ppl to help me? S***

Actually i alr asked my sch of computing fren to help me and he agreed, but he was busy with his stuff too and the earliest he can meet my grp was only this fri. which by then i'll be too stressed to eat/study/slp. my grp member also stressed me up coz he really behave like he cannot take it anymore of the coding part.

throughout this whole episode, i did not like tt way i handled things. i admit tt by nature i am a panicky person. tt's why i wanted to project to be completed soon coz exams are coming up. and knowing my study style, i cannot settle down and properly study when i still have projects on hand uncompleted. i am not as "Zai" as other ppl who can do minimal studyin and still score good grades. and YES, the project is my grpmats and mine i shld not ask ppl to help. throughout this whole episode i've learnt tt when you ask ppl for help, it's such a dreadful issue. best is to depend on yourself. therefore i've decided to not ask the both of them to help le.

what abt you? do you think tt i could have handled the matter in a better manner? to me i seriously think tt i have did the best tt i can to handle this. but deep down, i dunno how to face both of them coz every time when i see them, i'll think of the way they handled things and i will juz give them a expressionless face.

bottomline: at least tell me a "yes" or "no" so i can plan alternatives and i DO NOT like it when ppl DON"T reply my sms-es with regards to stuff tt requires planning e.g. project work stuff.

and although such a thing happened, i believe they will still behave as they did coz they do not see tt not replyin sms-es is a problem.

FYI: to A when he dunr eply sms-es, it's to show tt he agrees to what tt is being sed in the sms. but how am i to know if he got receive my sms right?

to Z when he is in doubt, he does not reply to sms-es (tt was wat he told me previously b4 this thing happened). which precisely made me panic coz he nv reply my sms tt implies tt he dunno whether or not he can do the job for us! and the reason why i only sms him once is coz i was thinkin if he was busy, i dun want to bother him with my sms-es knowin tt he wun reply.

I HATE HATE HATE!!!!! i am ANGRY! and yet UNHAPPY coz they are fine as frens but not ppl i will ask for help unless totally necessary. and the stupid thing is tt i still have to organize a KTV session with A coz he alr complete the main part of the project for us le.and the KTV session is to repay him. I really want to trash things out with him but i believe from his point of view, he thinks tt he did nothing wrong. so i shall save my mouth water.

when will this feelin subside? really lookin forward to the day i graduate next year so i wun have to face any of them. I WANT TO and WILL GRADUATE!!!!

ath contributing factor why i am super stressed now is also becoz exams are comin up. and although exams are coming up, i have yet to sit down and really do my revision.last year i really PANIC until like siao coz i dunno wat the hell was goin on. but this year although i STILL dunno wat is goin on, i still have not attempted to really sit down and revise. sobz... i'm worried abt my cap...

webcast

was watchin anand's webcast. FYI, he is the lecturer for I.T. it's a programmin mod. anyway, was thinking tt he is a nice lecturer. hmm~~ my second general bio lecturer is also good too. all interesting ppl. makes the entire lecture more "alive". but i seriously hope tt the quality of the webcast can be better. coz when i put it to full screen, the image gets all fuzzy wozzy. cannot see the codin clearly.bleah

was on the bus ytd with shu zhen, den i saw this ACS boy doin programmin stuff (almost similiar to wat we are learning in Uni. juz tt his is in something like a DOS mod)on his fujitsu laptop. omg. according to SZ, his lappy is worth her lappy and celeste's lappy tgt. rich kids.

tdy watched 1.5 of anand's webcast and still have one more IT webcast to go. i still have 2 more mktg webcast to go. bleah.

anyway, zy when you are free, go see the nikegolf.com webby. the michelle wie pic they use very nice. they got 3 pics 2 is tiger woods and one is michelle wie. so you keep tryin to go in until you see her lah.

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do i really come across to you all as being a chatter-box all the time? i have my quiet moments too. haha. known as "comfortable silence" to me depending on the situation.sometimes i'm tired also lah. so i keep quiet too. haha. zy and jy shld know tt. both ling jiao guo. lalala~~~oh yeah was readin some of my frens' blogs. seems like they dun update as often as i like them too. bleah. wah. tdy i update until 3 times. more then makes for the "disappearance" righty? oh yeah, anyway juz a lil good news to share is tt although i complain so much abt my mktg grp right? but at least my whole grp(for those tt turned up lah), we all scored full marks in the presentation part. YAY~~ now hope tt we can scored well in the report part too. *crosses fingers*

my pri 4 girl

erm... my pri 4 girl failed her english paper scoring a grand total of 30/100.according to her, her teacher told her "you are counted as lucky to have this score coz everyone in the class also failed" den i was like "ERM!!!"

anway every time during tuition she wun do her HW, always like to lie on the bed, always like to set up her harry potter game and insists tt i promised to play with her the other time. yup, i did promised to play with her and bring her stickers but tt's if she did her homework. but obviously she did not do it. so why shld i keep my promise to her righty? well i kinda got angry when she still refused to sit properly and insists on settin up her harry potter board game so i kinda raised my voice and sed "(her name), why shld i keep my promise to you if you did not keep yours in the first place? if you keep yours, i will keep mine too"

FYI, this lil girl eat soft dun eat hard (pardon the lousy english, it's my blog right?)then i told her, "if you do blah blah blah, i will play games with you in the last 15 mins." den after dragging and dilly dallying she finally did her HW although i dunno if she copied the ans coz she was lyin on the bed and i dun think tt it's very nice if i sit on her bed to teach her too (but in the end i still did). and you know wat was the thing tt caught her attention so tt she in the end do her HW? coz she was playin with her hello kitty dolls from mac's den she named 2 of the male dolls jonathan and yi hao. den i was like, "wah... you like these 2 guys in your class izzit? or else how come you name them this?" den she screwed up her nose and sed, "nope~, i came up with the name 'yi hao' by myself" (but i have a feelin tt she like someone lah) den she ask me nice or not. den after i sed tt it was a nice name she happily settled down to do her close passage. *phew

anyway since she has done her part, i played with her also loh... as i was seein her preparing to play i suddenly think tt hai... actually very poor thing also coz she is only pri4 den her elder sis and bro all dun play with her games... haha. some thing like me. haha. i like used to like to play monopoly but no one like to play with me coz it's a long game. haha. in the end played UNO with her. interesting. it's those tt can shoot out the cards one... okie okie tt's all tt i promised ppl to blog abt.

Long entry. dun read if you are in good/bad mood. read if you are in neutral mood.

Apparantly ying ying also kinda faced the same situation tt i face for my mktg project. juz tt hers was 2 grpmates who MIA and made her wait for 1.5hours. total of 5 grp mates, one turned up ath at least called to say not coming.

My case was each time i called her, her reasons were:
1) huh... it's my free day...
2) i have to work...
3) i have project meeting b4 tt, but i will try to make it if i can
4) erm... i'm not feelin well

at first she sed, "nvm, juz tell me wat to do, i will do it and send it to you all."

well, let's juz say i gave her the benefit of the doubt and told her wat to do for her part (but by then my grpmates and i alr had a STRONG sneakin feelin tt she wun do anything so we alr did EVERYTHING).

FYI, i informed her the week before tt we were meeting. and she told me tt she will come down even tho it's her free day. in fact each time i all got inform her via sms/msn of our meetings.

den during second last meetin (wed) before our actual presentation on fri, she called to say she cannot meet us coz she will very ill. so i told via sms her, "nvm, since you are so ill, juz upload wat you have done for your part into our ivle community since i still got time to add her part into the report.as for your part in the presentation, juz do the introduction" she then replied "huh?! but i tot i was supposed to do the research for question 2 and 5? i dunno anything abt the introduction leh izzit found on page 284 and 285?"

den i replied, "yeah" and continued to ask her about uploading her research for question 2 and 5 juz in case she really did her part and in order not to waste her effort, i can still add in...although it was alr wed. however... she did not reply my sms and did not upload also and did not send to my email also.


she then proceed to propose meeting us all on thurs 2-4pm to run thru our presentation. but we either have lessons or plans alr. so too bad. we can't meet her.

anyway, she really did her slides and send them to me on thur around 1 plus pm (when i was having lessons), SURPRISE SURPRISE!! so i was hopeful tt she will turn up for the presentation itself. but i when i was complaining to my frens online about havin to change the layout and formatting of all the slides and the fact tt i have to do not 1 but TWO version of our presentation (in case she turns up and in case she nv turn up) she called me at... 11plus pm to tell me, "eh... hi... this is (her name)... erm... is there anyway to push the whole grp's presentation to next week? (an impossible thing to do coz our tutorial lessons is only held on even weeks) i dunno if i can make it for tml's presentation coz i'm ill and i have MC..."

so i told her, "erm... it alright, if you are ill, juz pass us/the tutor the MC, we will still go ahead with the presentation and yeah ,we are using your slides (2 only out of her 9 slides, which i have no idea why i still bother to use/add it in although i suspect she will not turn up)."

her reply, "huh?... den... wat about... ... me?" wah... then i really pengz lor... y shld we bother abt you when you nv bother abt the report and nv do ANYTHING and never up for ANY meetings?

anyway, she asked for the tutor's email and i gave her (but i dunno if she got the correct email address given tt it was sed over the phone) den she told her tt she will inform me tml if she can make it. (note: tt still means tt i have to do 2 versions of the presentation slides)she still had the cheek to write in her msn msg, "MARKETING SUCKS"

my frens have concluded tt it's perhaps due tot he different culture of tt particular fac coz it's not required of them to attend tutorials which leads them to dun attend other fac's tutorials too bah.

okie. these are the main highlights of my exciting "grp member" although there are still other incidents...

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lesson 1: i'm gullible
lesson 2: i give ppl too much benefit of the doubt
lesson 3: (from my other mktg grp mates) wah, you so free to sms her ah? (... ...)
lesson 4: avoid being the co-ordinator of events

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anyway, despite my rantings, i see some her in me. although i hate to admit it. but yeah. i'm a bit like her. last sem's micro econs and legal, i did not know what is goin on so everything all my grpmates do. even the bulk of the presentation. i only did the minor minor parts.
but at least i turn up for meetings and dun leavin my grpmates hanging. (erm... tt's a redeemin pt right?)

this sem's MA i also nv do anything much. everything all throw to lao pa or old man to do. hai...*ashamed* my stats grp too~~~ SOBZ...

muz reflect on myself... :(

Mummy's Bday!

yay tdy mummy's bday! HAPPY BDAY MUMMY!

had dinner to celebrate w mummy but dinner damn long lah the ppl's system of servin ppl got a MAJOR prob and i was rather hungry so mood wasn't very good. but the food was really not bad. not too salty.

hmm~~ juz now tot of many things to write in blog. but when me inside this thing, suddenly mind blank. bleah

oh yeah tdy and tml is NUS/NTU/SMU open house. Daniel went for SMU's open tdy and told me they were arrogant. tml dan he go for the NUS one.

Kevin went for the NUS one tdy dan NTU one tml. he did not even consider SMU. haha think coz no Science fac bah.

me thinks tt the choice of unis really depends on your own personality. i'm not very outgoin and i get tired of keep facin new ppl and i hate doin lots of projects so i guess NUS was a better choice for me. coz to me i feel tt in NUS you can be ultra outgoin or be quiet if you choose to be. haha no pressure there to keep talkin. muz thank parents and viv tt they psycho me into choosing NUS. haha. and i muz say tt i did not regret knowin my NUS frens.i like. somemore got new buch of kakis to go sing KTV. i like even more. but keep goin ktv only also sianz. muz think of new stuff haha.

i really hope my frens can come into NUS coz can complete the degree earlier and if they perform well in exemption tests they have a year off which is such a good deal (at least to me lah). if i had been hardworkin and borrow notes from my frens perhaps i would have gotten a year off too. haha but nvm lah it's alr over. besides end next year i WILL GRADUATE liaoz!!!! I LIKE~ makes me HAPPY~~~lalala~~~

infatuation. when will it end? i hope it ends soon. haha. coz i feel tt it's not true. it's juz an infatuation due to boredom. hiayah. tsk tsk.

shit. supposed to study for test tdy. wat am i doin again? HUH HUH HUH?!?! writing blog haha. stats test this comin thurs. wish me luck ppl.

zy got a new chat box. v cute. i like. got those cute emticons of hers.but i lazy to re-set up mine again. so too bad.bleah.

lalala. shall end on happy note. coz i read frm newspapers tt how you felt b4 you selpt wil affect how you feel the next morning. and i believe tt coz last week i think i fell asleep not feelin happy and the practically the whole beautiful Sunday of mine was wasted. bleah. hahaa.

karen sent me many nice songs tt she got from her new best fren tdy. hahaha thanks babe. i like the songs. keep the songs comin in when you haf them. hahaha. *winks

realised i really quite 8 gua. juz found out tt my fren has his own biz. haha. how did i find out? hahaha coz i went snoopin around in his skype profile. hahaha. really busy ppl. only sleep 4 hours. like lao pa. i wonder how they do it. all of them so MOTIVATED. i guess tt's how it is like when you have your own biz. and when you do stuff tt you really have a passion for. jia you wo old man saggi, lao pa and any others who have biz but i dunno yet. haha. will i be like them one day? hmmm...

lalala~~ nice hor this colour. hmmm.... i like. haha. printed my MA notes in colour for fri's lect. so colourful. dan the pics looks cute. some of the pic like kindergarten pics hahaha so cute. kk talked enuff crap alr.

Me a florist?

Yesh~ some one actually tot i worked at the florist coz i was helpin my mum to carry the pots of flowers and the pots tt she wanted to the cashier's area. she was askin me "eh... how come here the leaves are like that and the other area is like tt". den i was like "eh... are you talkin to me? " dan she stare and i stare dan she sed "oops~~" and i was like *faster scoot away* haha.

weird.

btw mummy bought a "mini" rose plant for me. nice nice. i want to upload pic le...but... eh... everytime i try to upload always fail. dan the internet connection is damn slow. so no mood.bleah

refusal and in denial the need to study. SHIT. too lac alr. vbad bad bad. beautiful sunday. SIMPLY REFUSE TO STUDY!!!. *Angry with oneself. fri got paper. 10 days later got ath paper. and wat am i doin?!?! HUH HUH HUH?! BLOGGIN away to AVOID studyin. ewwww~~~

Searching

Hmmm~~ yup seaching and sensible. only 1 person chose tt. i was really surprised when sy managed to choose tt coz i did not think tt ppl will choose the word "searching" to descibe me. but i guess deep down i am? haha. kudos to grapes and zy for choosing sensible and silly respectively. haha. this johari window is like some kind of "BINGO" thing to me. interesting. figured tt it wld have been better if they had negetive words too? but maybe they can choose to not put their names. I wonder who is "Labbit"! *Argh.

The FOOL

You are the Fool card. The Fool fearlessly begins

the journey into the unknown. To do this, he

does not regard the world he knows as firm

and fixed. He has a seemingly reckless

disregard for obstacles. In the Ryder-Waite

deck, he is seen stepping off a cliff with

his gaze on the sky, and a rainbow is there

to catch him. In order to explore and expand,

one must disregard convention and conformity.

Those in the throes of convention look at the

unconventional, non-conformist personality

and think What a fool. They lack the point of

view to understand The Fool's actions. But

The Fool has roots in tradition as one who is

closest to the spirit world. In many tribal

cultures, those born with strange and unusual

character traits were held in awe. Shamans

were people who could see visions and go on

journeys that we now label hallucinations and

schizophrenia. Those with physical

differences had experience and knowledge that

the average person could not understand. The

Fool is God. The number of the card is zero,

which when drawn is a perfect circle. This

circle represents both emptiness and

infinity. The Fool is not shackled by

mountains and valleys or by his physical

body. He does not accept the appearance of

cliff and air as being distinct or real.

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NUA Day

WAH lao~~~ terrible... it's a beautiful sun but i'm at home supposed to be studyin but obviously no mood to do so. want to slp also cannot coz slp too much on sat. slp until head a bit pain. shit. how how how no mood to face books.

was wondering, after an outing, on your way home, do you recall wat have happened durin the outing and sometimes smile to yourself over some silly things tt your frens did to you or to one ath? i wld term tt as a sucessful outing coz my frens and i've througly enjoyed myself. :o) wat about you?

hmmm~ in her shoes?

I carry your heart with meLove Poem by e. e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fearno fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the budand the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Announcement

In an announcement earlier tonight, Dr Luo Bing announced a significant breakthrough in the research for a cure for fever. She discovered that "8 Gua" or more commonly known as gossip, actually makes a patient more energetic and alleviate the symptoms of fever.

When conducting the bedside tests, Dr Luo Bing actually experimented on herself and achieved positive. Such self-sacrificial spirit is indeed laudable.

Courtesy of JK. Posted on my friendster testi.

bored

wah~ sch's started. no mood to study still!!! HOW HOW HOW! shit. mood to study fastly come. at sch now and waitin for 12pm to come so tt i can line up and get the $5 movie tix for geisha. there was a notice at the bizad club tt says " due to overwhelmin response, each person is only entitled to max of 5 tix (with 5 matric cards)" haha. i've got 5 matric cards exactly. heng nv ask too many ppl along. Bleah.been here since 9am plus. frens think tt i'm MAD to come to sch so early for the tix. haha. after thinkin it thru. yup. i guess so. but too bad, i'm here alr. haha. and i really hate to disappoint my frens coz they matter to me and i try to keep my promises whenever possible.

was complainin to zy abt the lady who owned hl $$. and zy was tellin me tt she too will shy away from ppl who attempts to make use of her. according to her, the highest form of "makin use" is when the person he/she is UN aware tt you are makin use of them. well, tt's really an advance art to master if you ask me.

but i was juzt thinkin wat exactly defines the word "frens"? ppl whom you can pour your heart out too? ppl who gives you advice when you need it? ppl who comes to your help when you ask for it? to me the last part seems a bit of makin use of them alr. i think sometimes your frens do know tt you are makin use of them. it's juzt tt they are your frens and they value the frenship too much to bother to "ji jiao" with you when you ask them to do stuff for you/ borrow stuff from them. but it does not mean tt i can make take it for granted. do you? i'm weird. i wld rather ppl owe me favours (and sometimes i feel sore abt it) rather then they owe me favours. hahaha. let's juz say i will try to forgive. but i wun forget. LEO's personality bah. bleah.

was readin lavender's blog,zy's and zhong hao's. lavender's and zy's blog i can't open at home so was readin in sch. zhong hao's i seldom read. so was readin it in sch too. hmmm~~~ i can identify with some of the stuff he said. interestin. was readin lavender's one. realised tt i've kinda missed so many entries (and all the while i was thinkin she is too busy to bother to write in her blog). ZY's hahaha~ my fren who was seatin beside me commented tt your jimmy liao's layout looks damn cool and nice. *beams

different ppl open up to different ppl. who do you open up to?

sianz. now only 10:20am~ still got 1 hour plus.bleah.

Mean Mode

hl sms-ed me to tell me tt someone still haben paid her back for my 21st birthday present. damn pissed with tt girl. coz it's not like she has no money to pay hl back. i've actually asked the girl (when she was workin durin the hols) if she was workin to pay for her sch fees or stuff. but she sed "no" dan i asked how much was she earnin per hour. $7.5 seems quite fine right?! well! dan pay hl lah! owe hl for almost like 8 mths alr?!?!?! and everytime hl asked her for it she'll juz reply tt she'll pay she'll pay but WHEN?! damn shitty lah. i hate this kind of attitude. why dun she juz repay hl the money? if you did not want to share in my present juz tell hl. (i wonder y hl asked her to share in my present in the first place *ponders*)

anyway, whenever tt girl msn me i'll try not to reply her/keep my msg short and sweet. hate hate hate hate her attitude. i really feel like askin her myself when does she intends to pay hl back. but i dunno if it is a good thing to do so.

rain rain rain~ these few days keep raining. sometimes nice sometimes makes me feel restricted coz can't go out and jog/swim. sch juz started on sat (make-up lects) coz tue is public hol. v nice of jk to lend me his books. can save $$. looking for Managerial a/c book. i'm bored. entertain me.

been mean ever since i came into uni. kept suanin ppl. happily thinkin that they'll be able to take it since they are guys. bleah. dunno why. but was thinkin it'll be pretty boring if i dun suan ppl coz i'll keep all quiet for fear of hurtin their feelings? yet after i suan-ed them alr, i'm worried tt i'll really hurt their feelings. ARGH! the irony of it all. realised tt i was more tactful when i was in poly. not now. i've kinda changed. i can't stand myself some times too. bleah. zy advised me to be more tactful. poh poh too. i have to make a more consious effort to do tt. bleah. i'll keep my mouth shut. silence shall reign over my kingdom for now.

mean mode.buzz off.